it could still happend

Hmmm just wondering how my life would be if i didnt make the mistake i did.. i had someone who i truely loved and dearly cared about but doing something bad to that person doesnt mean you love and care about them aye.. you hurt them soo bad.. you broke there heart made them cry which also made you cry.. you lost friends which promised you "Friends forever" thats utter bullshit mate well e.. i just want to be a better person have one more chance to show you that the person who you loved was me. And the fact i hurt you.. killed me inside. i'd do anything to atleast be your friend again.. you were wise you made me into a better person.. i lost you, you hate me. anything i can do to make it right? i don't think soo.. well im trying soo hard to even talk to you... the fact your an awsome person and you left me in this darkness made me think of you much more.. our memories spent on the phone talking.. how you'd always walk away fro your friends just to talk to me.. how me talking to you always made you smile and made you laugh.. the fact that i dont understand is i asked you if you went for personality or looks? you said personality? why you avoiding me now then.. mm actually that was a stupid question cos if that happend to me.. id so hate it also.. but yeah just wishing you'd give me a second chance to prove to you i did not play your heart i actually did L....... youu..
i'd hate to reminise but when i met you.. i was a total bitch
you changed me to be a better person.. when i lost you.. anger and sadness built back inside me and all this anger built up and made me question how the hell can i do something soo stupid. yes your right okay im wrong the whole thing was wrong but are you able to addmit that i did make you smile.. and i did make that two months that best two months of your life?

i met you at one of my bestfriends 16th birthday party one night on the phone we flirted yeahh was with your friend.. but i felt you were a great guy soo i got to know you more.. the day before that i had my retreat.. which was like a bs retreat which made my week endTHA BEST cos i met youu.. we swaped numbers.. flirted and actually got o know each other.. the person yu showed me wasnt the real you.. but then i searched in deeper... but then days fter youapologised for being such a dick.. i accepted your apology because yeah you were at a party you had to have fun yes i get it.. but then i didnt really care after that? i saw your facebook and then you said you were ugly i said i dont care you said what do you think of my photo..? im like DAYUMMMMMM.. okayy then yeah you had cute smile.. dimple like zomggggg i miss you soo much :( and the fact you got shit out of me when you said baby and you said.. lets call each other baby andshiee imlike noo :$ then i developed more feelings for you.. gosh this sounds soo emo but its true :(

the song ... "walk me out!" remember what we said about that huh? cough ask mee... dot dot dot nvmm --" nd yeahh 14/03/09 met you then...
ad look how fast this went.. 18/3/09 the date you did "walk me out"
broo miss you soo much :( and yeahh it was one of the happiestt you knoww days of my life well this year.. not saying tht my sweet 16th wasnt great.. it was the best :)

and then yeahh.....

30/4/09
you were pissed at me :(
we had our ups and down and allways sort it out.. because we liked each other... our relationship was soo expensive.. but i say priceless because you were my world.. my everything.. euwww those words but yeah unfortuently its true :( and i also remember when your mummys like hey why are u always on the phone huh? you calling the whole world? an you respond toyour mum saying no mum im calling my world.... nyaww touched me soo hard :(


18/4/09
happy one month? ps me yeahh --'
M.y


20/4/09
you were crazy over mee then i had a fight with you cos i was jelous you were flirting with my bestfriend but you were just being friendly im soo sorry :( yo were at work placement and the fact we texted each other like thru out that whole day :)

22/04/09
p.s ily

23/04/09
the day we broke up again... and the day i went luna parkk with my firends you thought i was angry at you becaus i didnt reply to your text message :( nyaww it was hard playing hard to get but eh u got mee

25/04/09
its me and you again :D... --'


29/may/09
back to school you called me up to tell me u love me and miss me.. nyaww how i wouldntt mind anyone doing that ahhhhhhhh...

monday 4th of may
BYE BYE TO YOU FOREVER :(
we both cried and such



to the person.. you know wo you are i just want to say... 18/3/9 to 4/5/9 was the best okayys and i kept a record of such good memories and the fact "kodak cant capture all our memories"

a list i miss about you..
the way you moved
the way you said i love you
your great sence of humour
when you laugh
your cute smile
when you say putarageskaaaaa
when you say darnaaaa
the dnm's you had with my bestfriend about me
how no matter how sleepy you were you's still talk to me.
you'd call me just to hear my voice
how our free mins on three didnt last us a day/night
how you told me your goals in life was .. family, school,dancing friends then me.... i wouldn mind being the last.. because... when yo told me that i was like :O im last but u made me fee that u maintained your life and balanced it all.. im soo proud of you
how we'd have our little secrets and gigle about it like "walk me out" and that little april fools joke we played on my bestfriend which failed cos i kept laughing
ye ye ye ye ye ye yeye ye ye
omghhhhhhhhhgggdd!



oh god i miss youu.. fuck bro uh i think of you more than ever.. and the fact you've moved on im happy for you but the fact you cant give me a second chance.. saddens me :(
YWFMLT?! figure it outt

anyways i know you will do great in the future..
the girl that has you heart my advice keep it deep within you because boy you were one of a kindd..miss you soo much!

letterrss x3

it's life?

mmp high school 0h was a wonderful year when my shaniquas all were together.
first day of high school at jpII campus i was looking forward to it,
strting fresh with a new year. Find it hard also ; i did not expect this much homework.Its kinda stressing me. at the play ground i dont know why i dont laugh as much any more is it because someone told me to act more mature or is it because the people i need by my side to be there with me? hard to tell. it was friday30th of january marielle and diane came to jpII campus i was soo happy its like it made me to look forward to the week end :L but listeningto roschelle sying, they dont belong at st marys they belong with us.. here at sac thats were they belong, i thought to my self, i was like omg your words .. such a small sentence yet soo meaningful --"
and yet three days to start the year off of schooling without them and my bestfreidn while she was at canada.i felt so lonly, felt like no one would laugh at my jokes now? im liek fine i'll just sit here on my phone or soemthing idk man its going to take time to recover and stuff.
and when marielle and diane visited JPII. I WAS SUPRISED I ACTUALLY SPOKE SO MUCH. compared at recess and lunch. sometimes i feel greey feeling sorry for my self but i actually do? eh im such a dick >< sorry guyys.!
i've noticed that i am very selfish i want everything, and yet i do okay buh idk i have to let things go sometimes because they want to go somewhere .eh that doesnt make sence ignore that.
i just want to say :( i miss them alredy when i see them i alredy miss them when there like right next to me :( eh.
i miss 10 shaniquas at sac
in the MIDDLE of the quad
laughing at everything
drinking slushies
bitching
homework in the library?
chess club thingo euww nerd lol nah kids idk how to play i only went in there to get a year book photo mwhahaa :L and yeah im bord atm and im scared
i know i'll make through life without them :L ROFL and yeah
think happy :D
regie <3 shaniqua
forevsssssssssssssssssss