This whole concept of my “second thoughts” kind of makes me imagine myself walking across a tightrope. The whole rope itself represents the process that I’m trying to get across, and the further I get.. The more process I make. But as I get farther on the rope, I get those “What if”-thoughts and I have this urge to want to go back just and not continue on anymore. I know that if I give up, I lose all my process that I have made. And I can’t go back. But I just can’t risk losing anymore than I had already lost. I’m scared of falling. I’m not ready for that, just yet.