"You should really stay away from players"

They know how to play the game don't they?
They are that good... omgsh but well.. hello i fell in the trap of one...
Well he did not really play me... it's more of a ... "Wow you moved on so quick" type thing.
Well all i can say is... My ex... aka my 'First love'
It took me like years and several of guys to get over him... And by meeting Ian, he has seriously made me feel like there is no one else he wants.
I know i hurt him... but omgsh it's killing me the fact.. im going through this again. This pain... This pain of having to occupy my self in order to forget about him... By the help of good old friends i was given the best advice in order to move on and let go. I should have known it was not going to work out... But omgsh the pain that a guy can do to a girl is like suicide.
He honestly was like a bestfriend to me, i told my flaws and such to him, he accepted me for me... and had like the best laughs every single day of my life. Now days... it's akward... now days its like his trying to get away from me... because he doesnt want anything to do with me.
Yeahs its understandable, but having the dinner and you meeting my friends... and meeting them, im getting jelous... the fact that anyone around you can make you happy, But you made me happy i can re assure you that... You made me forget about my first love... and You were good enough to replace him.

Sigh so much things on my mind that i can't really explain, i guess you were different...
And due to the religion business... we knew it was not going to work out... Why didnt we break up earlier? when i was ready to let go and not think about it...
Why did you plan so much exciting things thinking that everything was going to be perfect when we do break up?
Why is it so akward now? sigh im too selfish arnt i, im sorry i guess you were like apart of me...

It's my sisters birthday today... you promised you'd take us out... but since its over between me and you, you want nothing to do with me dont you? This is what you said.

"I dont want to get attatched to YOU or your family "

Why not? even as friends? omgshh its killing me so much more >< fahhh i miss you so much Ian ><